Oh hey! Back at this again.
To say the last few months have been a blur would be a serious understatement. People definitely hinted that moving from one kid to two was, let's say, challenging, but I, the Maternal Mental Health Professional, am here to tell you that it's been somewhat surprising.
...As I write this Beck is howling in her crib, and I'm reminding myself that it's for her own good, then doubting that, then reminding myself of it, then doubting, then feeling my new best friend, Guilt. Guilt! You're here again, great. 
I think this time in the first year of life is when things kind of settle in, for better and for worse. The better is that you kind of know what's happening with sleep and eating and how to keep the kid quiet (crackers). The worse is that there is a point, and it's different for everyone, where you are familiar enough with your kid and the "omg they're so perfect" wears off a little bit (Beck is still the most perfect, don't worry), and you realize that you will never be able to do anything ever again with whimsy like you used to. Because now, in addition to regular adulting and planning and calculating of risk, you now have to think WWBD? What Will Baby Do? If I want to stay out past her bedtime, will it ruin our week? If I drink too much will she get drunk or have liver failure (no, according to the internet and the doctor). Every decision involves the baby at some turn. I don't say revolves around baby because I really don't think it has to, but now there's another person in your life, your house, your family, and they get a say too, whether big or small.
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Another list of stuff to buy! You're welcome. 
I had such a good time yesterday talking about nursing Beck and how it's been for us so far, so thanks for indulging me in that one. And now, as promised, gear! I go back and forth on these posts because on the one hand I believe in not getting something specialized for every. little. thing. BUT there are a few products that really make the whole experience better, so I try to keep the number of products I require to a minimum and make sure they're really good ones.
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Alternate title: Why new moms really shouldn't have to work.
I waited and waited to write about nursing because there's kind of a lot to say and also nothing to say. It's just ... a thing we do, you know? But, for better or for worse "choosing" to breastfeed is a hot topic in our culture, so here's my take.
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